Sunday, August 31, 2003
First Date
In the car I just can't wait
to pick you up on our very first date
Is it cool if I hold your hand?
Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?
Do you like my stupid hair?
Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?
I'm too scared of what you think
You make me nervous so I really can't eat
Let's go, don't wait, this night's almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
When you smile, I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target that i'm probably gonna miss
Let's go,don't wait, this night's almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this last forever
xxMy Inspirational Songxx
Harlow peepz....Well 2day i'm juz lazing around at home wif my trusty new guitar 2 keep me company...hurhurhur....pathetic life i'm livin in huh....But anyways, i had such a fun time yesterday wif sum1....hahahaaha....she rawks man....Super kool chick....She's a sista 2 me anyways since she's older den me....so wat, she's so small & cute she doesn't look her age at all....Luckily she's not a 'minah' man...hurhurhur...minahs sux altho sum r 2 die for....hehehehe....Only sum! Nah, dun wanna let u all into my private life 2 much...
So, my fren did actuali went 2 Womad yesterday...argh, i shouldn't haf spent my saved money for dat event...stoopid khairi go & went 2 buy a slingbag....Alamak, she said it was fun so i guess i missed out on da fun huh....damn....Hope she sendz me pix of da event...
Hmm, i've been wondering lately man...y sum pple i c whom i tot would neva have partners end up actuali having 1? dat got me tinking wat da hell iz wrong wif me...Damn, itz so hard 2 find gerls who would not judge a guy by his looks...so f**ked up man...Itz alwiz da same scenario 4 me, guy likes gerl: gerl not interested, gerl like guy: guy not interested...hahahaah!!! Sux man...Nvm...i walked around town yesterday & saw diz damn gorgeous gerl & when i looked at her bf, alamak, my neighbour looks better den him man...hahahaah....dat got me tinking, dat guy iz 1 helluva lucky guy....I tell u, da gerl was a natural beauty man....Y can't dat happen 2 me....hahahaha....Life's so unfair ....But reality iz, wen ur nothing, pple won't pay attention 2 u, wen ur finally sumthin, datz wen all the attention keepz coming in....Juz look at all da musicians or any famous pple, dey'll definitely say wen they were nothing, pple won't even gif dem a glance but wen dey're famous, da spotlightz on dem constantly....If i WERE 2 b sum1 1 day, & pple who come up 2 me & said dey knew me from skul or wateva or insisted dey were my fren, i'll say f**k u dimwit....Wen i was nothing, u couldn't care less.....Datz like da sweetest revenge i could think of man....Couldn't get any better den dat....I know who my real frenz r & those who r my contract frenz...Life's like a lie....
Well, i am a kid full of angst u noe....Smiling & laughingz juz a disguise....I'm not a happy person actuali....Plus itz difficult 2 make me happy....But da guitar my parenz bought 4 me was such a nice gesture...dat got me happy....hurhurhur....So itz my 1 week break oreadi...Gonna miz da 2 angels in my klas...1 i'm kinda afraid of & another wif da ultra cute voice....hahahaah!!!!! If dat person iz reading diz, BLAJA RAJIN-RAJIN YA ADIK! hahahaha!!! okies, till nex tyme, take care & may god 4give our sins....
xxAKU NAK BUAT BAJU SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTSxx
Friday, August 29, 2003
WOWEE!!!!!! I got an advanced bday present man!!!!! hahahaha!!!!! i mean damn ADVANCED!!!! I got my dream electric guitar man!!!! I stepped home & saw da guitar & da amplifier side by side ryte in front of me & i was like 'YAHHHOOOO!!!!!!!'....hahahaahah!!!!! Quickly hugged my parenz & started playing for like 2 hours str8! Super stoked 2day man! Wah lau eh, can't repay my parenz kindness enuf man....I was kinda expectin it 4 ma bday but now itz only August! Datz 1 month in advanced! hahahaaha!!!! Hope da cops don barge in for noise pollution or shit...hahhaaha!!!! cos i played damn loud juz now...wat da hell ryte....might as well make tek y rawk!
So, i went back to my sec skul in da mawnin! My former sec skul klasmate who had her driving licence oreadi fetched me from home & drove to kranji sec....so happy 2 c my fren drive...itz like i'm in awe of her...hahahaha...3 of us went back cos da others weren't appreciative of da teacher's like us! hahahaaha!!! So happy da teacher's still remembered me! Altho dey didn't recognised me at 1st due to my drastic change! Sec skul life 4 me was side parted hair, shirt tucked in, being quiet moz of da time etc etc...Now, hahahaaha.....kranji was sucessful in turning me into a delinquient dat iz! hahaahahah!!! Went back 2 skul wif my usual messy hair, ruffled up jeans etc etc but hey, at least my teachers say i'm kool! hahahaaha!!!! 'Oh my god, u looked so different!' was da same line da teachers told me. hahaahaha!!!!! Met da form teacher, physics, biology, technical, malay teacher etc etc....da smile on their face upon seeing us was memorable man...i'll never 4get dem 4 as long as i live. Went back 2 my former klas & visioned back where i sat & remembered all da crazy stuff we all did in klas. It was like a trip back 2 memory lane....5 years in dat skul & a lot of sweet memories still in my head....Kinda emotional though...hahahaaha....Khai emo seh....hahahaahah!!!!
Afta like spending 1.5hrs in skul, i asked my frenz from NP 2 mamam at KFC in SP....dey gamely agreed & i shoed dem da way...hahaaha.....nak pegi SP pun tak reti budak² ni...hahahaah!!!! hmm, i treated dem 2 cheese fries onli...hahaahah!!!! bajet dok....save duit buat kawin. Itz all kool 2day. Skipping klas 4 once won't hurt in xchange of seeing my frenz from sec skul. I'd rather have my sec skul klass back man. how i love dem 2 death. 2 r eventually gettin married & i'm having a laugh envisioning how dey'll b parenz 1 day...damn, can't believe we r REALLY growing up man...One by one, each one of us will settle down wif their life partners...i'm gonna b so happy 4 dem dat i can cry....
Okies, kinda long story huh 2day...hurhurhur....tanx again 4 reading aight! rawk on 2 whoeva's reading diz ryte now....
xxDa Boi Whose In Love Wif Da Model Of Style Magazinexx
Thursday, August 28, 2003
Yeehaw pple!!! Itz thursday & 1 more day 2 go to da weekendz! Woke up late 2day 4 skul as it was raining & i went str8 back 2 sleep. hurhurhur....Skulz a jiffy 2day....Doin my mini project etc etc...Hmm, i had a lot of fun disturbing da ferring gerlz in klas 2day...how i love 2 make fun of dem....hahahaah....their sarcasm iz good & i can't battle back...hahahaha....i love healthy sarcasms as long as it doesn't involve family or religious issues etc etc...Kinda ironic cos at 1st i thought they were snobbish wen i was in year 1, but now hey, dey're really kool pple. hahahaah....So cheers 2 both of dem! Stay kool! hahahaaha!!!
Hmm, I CAN'T WAIT 4 MY BDAY LAH!!!!! hahahaahah!!!!! How i wish i can fast forward time....Can't wait 2 start rawking....but now, da main focus iz to do well in da upcoming test. I'm such a bozo wen it comes 2 studiz....I've never been da studious type. Lazing around, tinking of sumthin else in klas etc etc....I wonder how da other kidz in klass can understand all da crappy shit lecturers teach in klass. No matter how i focus, it won't stay in ma head...I tink these kidz haf some kind of magic....hurhurhur....
Okie, 2dayz gonna b a short one....So i'll update again sumttime later aight!
xxUNCLE TOBYS STILL RAWKINGxx
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
Wowee...Itz been quite a while since i updated my blog...Quite a lot has been happening lately...I went out wif a person whom i tot was kool but in da end i tot otherwise...hahahaaha.....juz so u noe, being a liar 2 me iz such a damn turn off. I dun care if dat person iz reading diz or not...But i'm not angry wif dat person....hmm, skulz been crappy as usual. Altho lately i've been understanding shit in klass....Mebbi drinking Anmum helps huh...hurhurhur....Mid semester test iz in a weekz time & i'm super relaxed wen my frenz haf oreadi started mugging as if itz da 'O' levels or sumthin....hahahaha....Laz minute studying werks 4 me man...
Hmm, i've been practising on my guitar 4 an average of 2 hours evriday man....Gotta keep up so i can play Boxcar Racer's 'I Feel So' really well....Hope my skul got sumkind of 'Battle Of Da Bandz' thingy...SP's so lame lah....Build da Plaza oreadi still dun haf any happening shit goin down...NYP alwiz has sumthin interesting goin on...Wah lau eh....& da fact dat moz of my klasmate's not into music really adds salt 2 da wound...i'm like a loner in skul man....I'm more into punk rawk & alternative when sum of dem listens 2 da bloody techno shit...Wat satisfaction can u get from techno? Listenin 2 da same goddamn lame beats for eternity...Nvm lah, gotta respect pple's taste at da end of da day....
So happy 2day cos i asked my parenz for an Ibanez RG guitar & dey gave me da green light! So i noe wat 2 expect 4 ma bday! So da house won't b quiet anymore it seems...mebi i should install soundproof windows or sumthin cos i noe i'll b jamming non stop! Tek Y's gonna rawk bebeh! hahahahaah!!! hmm, i fell in love wif diz gerl/woman whose in da front cover of Style magazine. I grabbed my frenz mag while she's reading it & juz can't believe how beyyoootiiffuulll she iz...there's some 3-4 cover shots of her in da mag wearing a black dress & dat really blew me away...I wanted 2 juz tear away dat page but haha, my fren would b so angry if i did dat. nvm, i wanna buy da mag anyways...scan her pic & turn it into a tee or sumthin. hahahaaha!!!!! She looks so perfect from head 2 toe! Aiyah, dream on ryte....
Hmm, i've juz been a firm believer of da quote 'looks can b deceiving'....my ferring klasmate who alwiz minds her own bizniz & keeps quiet all da time, could draw a mean grafitti man! Itz really nice! She has talent... I told her, 'Farah, y not u join a graf competition ah, u'll surely b a contender 2 da others'....I kept 1 of her drawings juz for keep's sake....Even my mum was impressed. hahaahha!!! Cool gerlz like her rawks!
Okies, tanx 2 whoeva's reading diz ryte now....I'm not worthy of ur time. Tanx Again!
xxxUNCLE TOBYSxxx
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Yes yes y'all!!!! Itz midweek & i went 2 da stoopid newater plant near tanah merah MRT. Crap tour iz how i summarize it....but i did take home 3 bottles of newater knowing deep down da gross sources of it. Wat da hell ryte, togok jelah geng! hahaaha!!!! Hmm, itz been kinda quiet 4 me diz days....If not, surely they'll b pple asking me out goin down 2 town or juz chilling...hmm, it sux ah goin back home str8 afta skul....
Da 1st thing in da morning dat i laughed at was seeing my klasmate dying his hair. His hair is so short & still he wanted 2 dye it in diz colour called Nectarine. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Itz all kool though....I was da 1 who suggested him 2 dye it anyways. hurhurhur....So in skul my frens & me set up da League Of Tai Ti. Hahahahahaaha!!!!!! Itz so stoopid yet a funi way 2 c who rulz in da game. A lot of weird ideas come up wen da whole group's together. Kinda kool.
Hmm, i'm kinda disturbed by diz e-mail SOMEONE sent me. Bout diz nipple pic wif crappy holes in it wif maggot like creatures shit....Goddamn, datz like da type of pic dat'll replay in ur mind 24/7. But wen i c da pic, it lookz like as if it was computer doctored.....I don believe it though....Nonetheless, dat was such a turn off sight. Tanx a million 2 da person who sent me dat. Da princess of Sibu Island. Hahahahahaha!!!!!! Sori eh cik kak, saya main² aje. :)
Ok peepz, i'll sign off ryte now. Till nex tyme....
xxDa Boi Who Tinks Happiness Iz Short Livedxx
Sunday, August 17, 2003
hmm....living life iz damn difficult man....itz sux knowing ur all alone in diz world not knowing wat da future holds 4 ya....sumtimes i do tink having a special sum1 can help solve da problems...u know, sum1 u can juz spill evriting out & know she'll b there 4 ya....most of da people dat i've known have sumwhat been so superficial...dey onli holla u wen dey need ya & if there's nothing, u'll juz b deserted. wat da hell man....datz juz life. Take it or leave it.
Ego iz another factor dat i juz can't stand bout people. Itz like dey think so highly of themselves. Itz like 'hey, i'm better den u' kinda shit. F**k it....nobody's better den da other. Itz so difficult 2 find sum1 whose down 2 earth....
Itz also kinda frustrating on how pple take my kindness as a weakness. Dammit man, here i am being a nice guy & u wanna take me 4 granted (an ode 2 sum1 back in sec skul). Itz a selfish world we're living in....nobody cares, nobody gives a ratz ass bout da other etc etc....Datz y, pple who know me can alwiz c me smiling & laughing but deep down, i'm juz suffering.....Suffering from da loneliness, rejection, judgement of pple etc etc....Yeah, don f**king judge me man....Juz bcoz i look like some jacked-up kid & all, doesn't mean i'm a bad person. 4 god's sake, u'll b damn surprised i don even do crap guys nowadays do. Looks can b damn deceiving. Some stages in life, i did thought of doin shit, but hey, wat good do i get from it? Recognition? Status? Acceptance? Hell no man....I am who i am & no1 can change me.
Hmm, hope i find sum1 by da time i'm reaching 20. hahahaahaha!!!!! Kinda funi how u've been single all ur life when pple around u haf had like 20plus relationships even b4 reaching 20. Itz such a weird feeling. Itz like 'wat da hell is wrong wif me?'.... hahahahha...nvm, i'll take tings slow huh. Cos i wanna make sure dat my 1st relationship is da 1st & da last. Jennifer Love Hewitt's alwiz there as my back up...hahaahahah!!!!! okies, till nex tyme....
xxDa Guy Whose Juz Dying Insidexx
