Sunday, September 28, 2003
Yiipppeee!!!! i've finally completed my stoopid english report....Took me 2 whole days 2 really indulge myself in it. Until ma frenz had 2 go down 2 ma house & help me do it...Now i feel so free upon completion of diz damn report...So now looking 4ward 2 tomolo 2 watch my fevret local band ever Force Vomit perform at Bar None....Jeng Jeng Jeng! hahahaahah!!!
So early in da mawnin ma fren came down 2 ma place & did da report. While doin da report, her bf called up & da poor guy had 2 wait 4 her at da carpark 4 like half an hour cos she had 2 finish up her report....hahahaha...guys do wait 4 gerls huh it seems. Wooo.....i kinda hate pple who r late....
So 2day i juz played ma damn gitar & turned da volume up so loud dat mebi Johor can hear da music...Playing music while releasing all da stress & frustration in life...luckily none of the guitar strings snapped...hmm, wonder y da guys in class don indulge demselves in music huh...haiyah, i'm da only odd 1 out it seems....
Hmm, lately i've been wondering....do pple show their true colours all da tyme or r they juz pretending 2 get so called recognition or juz wanna blend in wif da crowd...cos some pple act differently wen they're wif different pple...all i wanna say iz dat y not treat evri1 equally? Plus i have a hard tyme figuring out some pple...Mebi datz juz me & ma thoughts....I'll let any1 whose reading diz 2 reflect on wat i've juz said...till nex tyme, smile alwiz.
xxI'M STARTING 2 FALL 4 SUM1xx
Friday, September 26, 2003
Yeah Yeah Itz Friday!!! hohohoho....can't wait man 4 da weekendz...but itz gonna b spent on doing ma stoopid english report...crappy s**t...hmm, yesterday was such a wet day man...so cool....slept so soundly cos it was so cold & nice!!! hahahaa....had da stoopid computer practical test in which i breezed thru....Completed da crap test in 10 minutes & left...hohohoho....was i psyched on it...couldn't believe i could do it...as soon as i left da room, ma klasmates from da other batch stormed me 2 get clues & i gave dem evri single clue bout it...hohohoho...dat made evri1 happy...
Afta skul, i went 2 siti hall 4 awhile & stumbled upon Dominic Low! alah, da Channel Newsasia reporter lah! hahaahah!!!!!! i was turnin on a corner den there he was reporting on dunno wat...i looked at him & he stared back at me...hahahaah!!!!! wooo....wouldn't it b cool if he were 2 interview me & i'll b on teevee!!! gereknye!!! hahahaah...famous skejap....hmm, i ordered a tee online u noe....from diz label called Tall Midgets...they were on da malay papers recently...their tees r quite cool...A piece cost $30...itz ok since we're suppose 2 support local production...go to tall-midgets.com y'all....u'll find their tees quite interesting....now juz waitin 4 their kol...dey send ur order str8 2 ur home u noe! kool....at da comfort of ur own home & a click of da mouse, itz so convenient...
so wat else eh....i tink datz bout it 4 2day....i'm looking 4ward 2 monday cos ma fevret local band Force Vomit iz performing at Bar None! kool....so looking 4ward 2 it....plus da entry iz free...hurhurhur.....okie dokie, take care & love ur uncle....
xxSUM1 IN KLAS IS SLOWLY GETTIN MA ATTENTIONxx
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
Wat up peepz! Itz been a while huh...Kinda bizi wif skul as usual...hmm, i juz came back from my 1st ever floorball training 2day...wow, from 4 till 7 i sweat it out man....Itz all good...at least i'm exercising...Luckily all da guys were kool dudes...da type datz easy 2 talk wif...Wen itz all over den u'll feel damn exhausted...hohooho....
So i went bowling at da skulz SPGG....damn crap place man cos itz so expensive! wat da hell.....$8 for 2 games???? c'mon! we're r still studenz man...y not make it a dollar or sumthin....crap skul....Serious man, i hate my skul....
Hmm, another 2 weeks 2 ma berfday & i'll b so old...i wanna b 18 4eva man....so many memories being 18....Oh man, i hate growing up...So many responsibilities wen u grow up....argh....Dun grow up 2 fast ah...Spend ur teen years fruitfully...don b a boring person cos u onli live once....haf fun while ur at it....okie, datz all...i'm starting 2 haf a headache...hurhurhur...
xxLOVE IZ ALL U NIDxx
Saturday, September 20, 2003
Woohoo!!! I passed da crap MCPC test! ahahahah!!!! My grades r really mrepek man! My marks so far are 47, 62, 63, 64. C a pattern? Diz means i'm like a C student man....hahahahaha!!!!! Kool!!! Except for da 47 lar...Must work hard on dat...I dun care da fact da other guys in klas got way high marks or wateva, i'm kool wif myself...I did ma bloody bez man...4 real, i'm a slow learner...Dat i noe....it takes me a whole lot of time 2 understand the simplest of things....
Oh man, dat Finch song has got 2 b my ultimate song in life man...I've been listening 2 it for like more den 10 times evri day...Argh, i love it so much! Juz wait if ma skul has a band competition or somethin. Gonna shout da hell up man! Da vocalist iz so kool man! So i'm sure other pple have their own favourite song which they can relate too. Itz like an escapade thingy from life u noe....Wen i'm down, i plug da earphones & listen 2 it.
Hmm, i wonder if u guyz out there will really know wat u'll become wen ur all grown up. I still dunno yet...Ma future looks gloomy man...Even if i get the damn diploma, wat am i gonna do wif it? It serves me no purpose. Itz juz a stoopid piece of paper....I dun undastand a thing in skul & i dunno whether i'll apply wateva i've learnt in skul 2 ma working days...C'mon, if i study hard or wateva den if i sign on 2 da army or sumthin, i won't apply wateva i've learnt ryte? So watz da use? U tell me....Education can get u far, dat i noe, but depends on how the situation looks like 4 u. Okie, i'll end ma blog here 4 2day. Do tink bout ur future ahead ok. God Bless Ya.
P.S: http://smash-aurorae.blogspot.com.....
xxDA ABOVE BLOG IZ KOOLxx
Thursday, September 18, 2003
Hey hey...Ever heard of sum1 whose happy 2 fail? well, da answer 2 dat question iz ME! hahahahaah!!!! I got 47 for ma maths test & i'm super stoked man! hahahaah!!! c'mon, i onli expected 20 u noe....Hahahaha....go on, say i'm pathetic but i'm quite pleased i can even pass da paper if not 4 sum careless mistake....Wow, i did try ma bez man....hahaha....Itz not as if i failed badly ryte...There's still a glimmer of hope...hahahaha....ryte....
So, i brought ma fren from NP 2 come over ma skul & eat at foodcourt 4 diz aftanoon...wahahahaa.....Long tyme since i've last seen her....hohoho....She complimented me ah....hahahaha....Da goondu security guards at da guard post didn't even ask 4 her ID wen entering da skul...hahaha....Funi lah those guards...Well, did talked bout how skul went & how r ma other 'kidz'....hahaha....Super kool 2 c her....Still da ever size 4 feet....HAHAHAHAHA!!!
Hmm, can't wait 2 noe ma microcontroller results 2molo...I'll b super psyche if i pass...hurhurhur....finally sumthin can cheer ma meaningless life...Aight, datz all 4 2day, tanx 4 dropping by...God bless....
xxSHUNJI MATSUO RULZxx
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Wowee...itz been a long tyme since i updated ma blog...Been bizi diz dayz...Hmm, i'm super doped i passed 2 of ma test so far....Hahahaha....i really can do it huh....1 paper, system & control which i thought i would fail miserably, i got 63 for it...damn, was i stoked....nvm da fact i was da lowest in klas....i really dun mind...hahaha...all i know i did da paper wif all ma bez & passing was sumthin 2 smile about...i was so happy yesterday...But maths iz a sure failure...hahahaha!!!! i'm gettin it back 2molo....mamposnye....
So, i wonder how pple cope wif anger & frustration...4 me, i juz listen 2 Finch's 'what it is to burn' & i'm kinda cool....Itz such a deep song & i've got lyrics of it in 1 of ma blogs...Mak ai, being constantly in anger & frustration ain't dat good huh....i do tink of god wen i start 2 feel useless & wen i start 2 think shit bout maself....Mebi itz true, religion does get u back on track...I envy those who r really 'good' u know....2 find da strength 2 b 1 iz kinda difficult 4 me....Itz ma inner demons which hinders me....Argghhh, slowly but surely i'll change....U know, how i wish i could be born again.....den i'll b a bloody good boi....looking back, there r sumthings dat i regret....no turning back time ryte....
Hmm, i know dat pple who r reading diz can know dat i'm a disillusioned kid....datz wat i am....even some strangers do e-mail me wif comments...datz kool...at least i know pplez opinion....If all ma anger were 2 pile up, it'll b as huge as a mountain....I'm angry wif myself, da world, evriting....Anger anger anger....Hope brighter days r ahead of me....medi datz wen i'm dead den i'll b peaceful....
xxDUN B LIKE ME....B HAPI ALWIZxx
Sunday, September 14, 2003
Wah lan eh...I dunno 4 wat reason i went 2 watch Sinbad man...hahahaha!!!! Cool graphics man....Worth ur dead presidents....Hmm, if u guys wanna know....I did something drastic 2 myself....I dun look da same anymore....Da peepz in skul will b da 1st 2 c my new look....Tired of having da same commentz 'hey, cut ur hair lah! Oi, ko tak rimas ke rambut kau camtu? blah blah blah & shit'.....Now, i really look different....Wahey, da hairstylist made my day yesterday...U guys should get a haircut at Shunji Matsuo man...Da staff there r really courteous & frenly....Plus da fact da malay deskgerl iz 2 die 4 man! hahaahah!!! Lawar giler sak kakak tu!!!! Anyways, Evanda, ma hairstylist iz such a kool woman! She rawks man....Da fact she can speak malay too iz kool.
Aight, nothing much 2 say except bout ma new haircut...Datz all...So u guyz out there, dun 4get 2 pray orait b4 itz too late...
xxREPENTxx
Saturday, September 13, 2003
Oh man....Sum1 please juz kill me....I dun c any purpose 2 live anymore man....Wat da hell....Who am i in diz world? I'm juz another face in diz sinned world....It sux damn bad man....I can't go on smiling & laughing 2 pple & act as if i'm a happy person....crap....I'm really disillusioned man....Skul, frenz, family, personal shit iz really making me frustrated....I can't go on like diz....Or mebi i'm juz lacking of pple advising me....I'm alwiz advising pple but it seems i'm da only 1 whose losing out at da end of da day....Sometimes, sum1 could juz sit down & talk 2 me iz a great deal 4 me....U know, a 1 on 1 conversation....
How i envy those 4 r alwiz happy...Y can't dat b me....Oh man....Mebi i do deserve da solitude i am in ryte now huh....4 all da sins dat i've done...mebi itz payback....Well, payback's a bitch....
xxMAY GOD BLESS U EXCEPT MExx
Friday, September 12, 2003
OH GOD PLEASE 4GIVE ME......
4 I HAVE DONE 2 MANY SINS IN LIFE......
PLEASE SPARE ME THE WRATH OF HELL......
I'M NOT WORTHY OF UR FORGIVENESS......
PLEASE 4GIVE ME......
xxI'M GONNA B DEADxx
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Harlow!!! Wah lau eh, 2dayz test was ok man....I bet i'll get 26/50...hahahaah!!! Cos i'm damn sure! hahahaha!!! Confirm gilernye! Cos da others i juz hentam anyhow, da 26 marks i really make sure i guarantee dem man....hohooho.....Hmm, 2moloz da laz paper...Maths lah...Kannina....1 thing oso still dun understand....Crap crap...Had a lot of fun though 2day in skul....Sat at da benches at da plaza & juz laughed & talked wif da bois....Thank god dey're a cool bunch....Evri single 1 of dem r jokerz....Kool....I'm such a happy boi afta 2moloz paper....Gonna sense freedom in da air definitely....
Hmm, can i ask whoeva's reading diz now 2 gif me an opinion bout guys wif older gerls...Plz plz, i really wanna noe ur opinion. Send ur views to skatecyber@hotmail.com..... plz plz plz....I'll gif ya a mooncake 4 ur effortz....eheheheh.....Seriously, i really want ur views....Does age really matter or iz love & respect at da end of day iz watz important....So datz all 4 2day....Tanx 4 reading ma short blog...hehehe....Keep da e-mailz coming plz.
xx4 Once In Life I'm Lovedxx
Monday, September 08, 2003
Yahoo!!!! I surely can do my test diz morning! Haahhahaha!!!! Really paid off man...My fren from tampines came all da way yesterday 2 come 2 ma house & study 4 da subjek 2day....Overnight ah at ma house also....I taught him 'Khai's Crash Course'...hahahah!!!! In like 30 mins, u can cover evriting man! ahhahaah!!!!!! As expected, wateva i taught him came out juz now in da test...& he was smiling all da way....Haiyah, as long pass i happy oreadi man....From knowing zilch 2 knowing almost evriting iz quite kool man...
Hmm.....diz days i've been pretty happy man....hmm......Won't tell y. So juz now i went 2 skul wearing ma pink tee...y da hell i wear it iz a mystery 2 b solved....Hahahaa....Mebi kinda getting bored wearing black....Hahahaha.....Hmm, i look like crap in bright colours man....Dark colours iz da way....but being a guy does restricts fashion u noe...Unlike girls, dey haf like a million & 1 clothes 2 wear u noe....Like guys, itz either a tee or a shirt, jeans or pants....Ryte ryte? Girls can wear virtually evriting & still look good no matter wat man....Wow, girls do rule man.....hahahaa......
Wokay, i'm off 2 study 2moloz test...No crash course 4 diz 1 cos da damn lecturer didn't even gif a damn clue or hint man....crappy old cikgu......aight, take care!
xxI'm In L__Exx
Saturday, September 06, 2003
Weee!!! Finally i've managed 2 understand 1 subject 4 da upcoming test oreadi...Very happy...hurhurhur....But maths proves 2 b an obstacle lah...Maths maths maths...how i hate u....So, yesterday i watched pirates of da caribbean & it was so kool! Johnny Depp iz so quirky in da movie...Cool pirate lah he....Funny da way he talks & walks...Plus itz a 2h20min film man! So long! Luckily da storyline iz good...hahaha....40min more & it'll b a hindustani movie....Oh yeah, gotta watch Janji Diana ma fren lent me...hehehe....Semangat criter mlayu lah skarang....hahaahah....
Hmm, yesterday ma old man bought me da moz funniest thing 4 me! Ada ke patut dia beli buku gitar chord lagu-lagu zaman 60-an...hahahaha!!!!!! Itz so hilarious man! Luckily inside contained ma favourite 60's song by A Rahman Hassan....hahahaha!!!!! Practiced 4 15 mins den i played da song 'Tak Mengapa'....hahahaah!!! Ask ur parenz & i'll bet dey know him & dat song...hahahaha.....Hmm, i listen 2 evrithing man...All sorts of music....
Wah lan eh, now i go 2 mosque gerenti i'm gonna wear slippers or sandals...I haf a phobia of wearing shoes man 2 da mosque...Since i lost my favourite skate shoe at da mosque like 2 months ago during friday prayers, i've been wearing slippers ever since....Who in da right mind wanna steal....In a mosque summore! Gotta b da secondary skul kidz lah....Takkan pakcik nak curi skate shoe kan....hurhurhur.....Hmm, i'd cry if i lose ma Nike Air Force 20th edition...There's only 100 pairs in S'pore u know & i'm 1 of da owners! No way i'm gonna wear dat 2 da mosque....Nangis tak berlagu beb....I'm a shoe freak if u wanna noe...Bet da guys in skul can c dat....I juz love shoes...But i dun like da ones dat r commonly seen u noe...I like da rare ones a lot....
Okie peepz, gotta go lah....Haf 2 study u noe....Die die muz understand....hurhurhur....Peace out bebeh!
xxBeing 18 Iz So Koolxx
"What It Is To Burn"
Today is on fire
The sky is bleeding above me, and i am blistered
I walk these lines of blasphemy, everyday
And still...
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn
I feel diseased
Is there no sympathy from the sun
The sky still far
But I am safe in here, from the world outside
So tell me
What's the price to pay for glory
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn
Today is fire, and she burns
Today is fire, and she burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn
FINCH: What It Is To Burn
Thursday, September 04, 2003
Eeeee.....i had an appointment wif da dentist in da aftanoon 2day....My mum ah....Suddenly kol me up & told me i had an appointment...She never asked me 1st man....So bloody painful man...Lots of blood man....hahahaaha.....But now ma teeth r really sparkling. Bling bling! haahahaha.....Da dentist was surprised i told him i didn't smoke. Cos da 1st thing he asked was exactly dat....Hmm, pple do judge huh...Bloody hell....Doesn't mean dat i look jacked up i smoke wat....Find ah guys nowadays who doesn't smoke....Bet it'll b onli a handful....Anyways, da drilling da dentist did was damn 1 of a kind man...Sakitnye na'uzubillah....Kept twitching ma closed eyes...tak tahan ah....hurhurhur....
So u guys out there, do go 4 ur dental checkup aight. Nanti no1 want 2 kiss u den u know. hahahahaha!!!! Kidding....Aw man, i still haven't really studied man 4 da upcoming tez...Shit lah, i'm lazy as hell man....Hahahaha....Sum1 muz lecture me ah not 2 b lazy den i'll wake up or sumthin....Hmm, i tink i'm pretty outdated sia....Onli now i know da band who sang in Smallville's theme song was Remy Zero!!! Mak ai, all da while i've been wondering who sang it. Nasib baik ma klasmate was singing dat song & i asked him who sang it....Hahahaha....I dun watch smallville religiously though....Da chorus part iz really nice man....But da lead singer looks like a faggot man....hahahaahah!!!!! Botak head like moby....hahahaaha.....
So, 2molo i'm watchin pirates of da caribbean...i'm a huge fan of johnny depp man....he's so cool...my all time fav movie is edward scissorhands man....4 shizzle! He's like 40 plus but still looks so cool. He rawks. All his roles r quirky & weird ah....Okie peepz, looking 4ward 2 haf fun 2molo! hahahaaha!!!! Power 2 whoeva's reading diz.
Ult li albi bissaraha
Hayya nab'idil karaha
Syakkireena a' kulli na'ma
Ba' ideena anil fattana
xxPeace Love Respectxx
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
Wat da bloody f**k man 2day!!!! I got into an accident wif a stoopid moth******er who doesn't even noe wen 2 brake! Ch**ba* asshole!!!! There i was in da right lane minding my own bizniz wen all of a sudden diz asshole of a car from da left turned 2 da right & thus hitting me....Luckily it was da driving skulz car....If it was mine, i'll call da bloody moth******er's parenz 2 bring back his corpse....Da least he can do iz c da traffic situation & brake lah!!! wah lau eh, i braked oreadi still he wanted 2 jam da accelerator....Lucky my instructor was a kool guy....Cos he knows it wasn't my fault & told me not 2 wori...So embarassed man driving da smashed car back 2 drivin skul wen all eyes were set on me....F**k dem lar....tink wat dey want, i didn't do aniting wrong....C****a*....Afta all dat, i went back 2 skul & had no mood 2 study....Wat da F man, haven't get licence oreadi experience an accident....how stoopid can i get....even though itz not ma fault, kinda f**ked up ryte....
Haiyah, lady lucks' not on ma side 2day....Thank god i got sum1 2 spill out all ma problemz 2day...clogging all ma problems & keeping it 2 maself, i'll b so paranoid man....4 more dayz 2 test day & i still no nutz about anything....Y can't we all study wat we really like in life ah...How i wish i could study grafitti art, music or any other artsy form of expression...Wanted 2 go to la-salle but hmm, money's a problem...haiyah, living in diz country iz stressful man....It like da same scenario 4 studenz like us, study, get a job, get married, have kidz blah blah blah den at da end of da day u die....wat da bloody shit iz diz man....life ain't dat beautiful lah....haiyah, better stop here b4 i continue my rants again....
Okies, take care aight 2 whoeva's reading diz....Peace Out....
xxDa Boi Who Has Da Ability 2 Bcome Like Adolf Hitlerxx
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
Will you ever?
I don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.
I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.
I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.
You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.
I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.
You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where I’d be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.
xxKhai Hari Ni Jiwang+Emo Moodxx
Hosey liao! such a kool day 2day man...itz raining ryte now....but i can't get back 2 sleep...instead i'm writing diz down...hmm, studying in skul can b quite crappy cos i tend 2 talk more wif frenz instead of actuali burying myself in da bookz. hahahaha....wat do ryte, boys will b boys & all of da nonsensical topics in da world could b brought up...1 thing though, my ferring klasmate really made a fool out of me cos she asked me 4 idiotic questions dat i can't answer! her questions r really stoopid!!!! 4 example, wat type of cow do pple search for? da answer: a lost cow....oh man, if she hadn't wore dat headscarf, dun tink she'll go back wif all her teeth intact! da other 3 jokes were super crap! hahahaa...but itz all fun, i can take lame jokes. Jaga kau adik! hahahaa.....
Hmm, yesterday was like da moz memorable day in my life man....Won't say wat but thank god sum1 can make me happy.....smiling & laughing all over again....if i were 2 mention evri single thing, it'll take 4eva 2 finish up....so nvm, tukar topic yea....
So, i've been thinking of cutting my hair man...hahahaa....but alamak, i wanna keep it like 1 of da guyz in The Strokes....so kool lah....but alamak, sum gerlz gif me different reactions man...Goody two shoe gerlz like gelled up smart alecky type of guys but da so called 'trendy & 'in' type of gerls like guys wif weird but kool hairstyles nonetheless....hmm, gerlz r weird....hahahaaha....1 thing though, i'll neva side part ma hair eva! datz like so yesterday man & itz so common.....haahahahaha.....but itz all kool, all i nid iz dat sum1's opinion whom i trust....hmm, but long haired gerlz really rawk man....hurhurhur.....
Aight aight, i wanna sleep again & wake up & go 2 skul in like 2 hours tyme....so tanx 4 reading my plain & simple blog ya. Power 2 u!
xxI'm Officially Off Da Single's Listxx
Monday, September 01, 2003
Whoa....Feelin upbeat 2day man...hurhurhur....even though i have 2 go 2 skul 2 study wif da usual homebois...nvm, at least in the evening i'm gonna mit sum1....so looking 4ward 2 miting dat sum1 again...so kool.... : ) so 4 da 1st time in like months i watched a movie on channel 5 yesterday from da starting till da end...Sleepy hollow rawks man...da headless horseman iz 1 kool villain man....But dat johnny depp iz so pathetic lah...very weak ah his character....so wussy...hahahahaa.....
Hmm, my 3 day old guitar has been a really good companion man....i can turn on da volume 2 da max & juz play as loud as i want....Playing mostly Blink 182's first date over & over again.....Dat song rawks! & oso good charlotte's girls & boys....da part wen da lead singer Benji sings 'girls dun like bois, girls like cars & monneeeeyyyy!!!!!'......datz like kinda true man...hahahaha.....hmm, mebi i wanna try 2 learn some old skul malay songs or sumthin...dat'll b super dope...alah, da type u alwiz hear during malay weddingz etc...hurhurhur.....b retro a bit....alamak, onli if my klasmates were more musically inclined , can open a band or sumthin....but nvm, i can still count on ma outside frenz....1 even wanted 2 buy a whole drum set & put it in 1 of his empty rooms in da house. Dat'll b super kool but soundproof windows gotta b installed 1st lar....tak pasal pasal, cops will come in....
aight, datz all 4 2day....Gonna update 2molo again....c ya peepz & tanx 4 reading my humble blog.
xxAm I In Love Or Sumthin?xx
