Friday, October 31, 2003
2DAYZ ENTRY WILL BE IN MALAY Y'ALL!!!!
ASSALAMUALAIKUM....wah deh....penat sungguh beta hari ini....tadi pagi pegi skola blaja MCPC macam nak rak seh....start kul 8.45 sampailah tyme nak gi solat jumaat...kirakan 3 jam lebih ah non stop lantak blaja MCPC...nasib baik wat i studied came out. 2 pasal nari buat da paper in 50 minits flat. tapi standard ah, entah betul ke tak my answerz smua....tak pasal ah, hati rasa tenang ah buat ni paper. Lepas solat friday, peh lincah kadok aku ngan memberz patah balik ke skola....hurhurhur....stakat tinggal 10 minit 2 reach skul....skali sampai skola juz nice....masok klas trus bleh start buat da paper. now tinggal 2 paper 2 go ah....yg maths dengan sensor & instrumentation....astaghfirullah, yg maths serious nye pening lah....camner nak start blaja sedangkan i dunno where 2 start....
so lepas da paper, me & my fren Nasser gi HMV...si Nas nak bli The Strokes nye cd....hehehehe....wah, my influence really got 2 him ah....singgah Al-Falah skejap den rounding² ah kat Taka....sampai sana je trus peh ramai budak² cina ngah duduk kat sana...rupanye kumpulan Taiwan S.H.E perform ah kat situ kul 7....ingatkan saper lah yg datang....Abeh, afta pikiran nak buka kat maner, at last me & Nasser buka kat Al-Falah jugak...mak ai...klasik experience abis....tyme dah kul 6.40....abeh ada ustaz ni ah buat announcement bout sumthin....aku ngan Nasser tak dengar sangat pasal kite org kat blakang den da audio wasn't dat good ah...aku pun toleh kat Nasser & tanya 'eh ser, apa ah dia cakap?'.....den si Nas pun cakap 'oh, dia suruh cuci tangan dulu ah sblum makan'....den i was like thinkin, 'takkan imam buat announcement suruh cuci tangan kan.....' abeh me & Nas pun gi toilet ah cuci tangan...abeh kluar toilet, nampak ah org dah start queue up kat luar toilet....rupanye dorang q up amik makanan lah....RUPANYA DA ANNOUNCEMENT WAS TO INFORM US DAT DA FOOD FOR BUKA WAS READY FOR DISTRIBUTION...... & there he was thinkin da imam suruh cuci tangan...hahaahaha!!!!!!! aku nye bengap, aku pegi ikut dengar cakap dia....rupanye si Nas pun tak dengar padahal step dengar ah....mak ai, apa nak jadik ngan budak budak skarang....
abeh bila dah tyme buka, kite pun share ah ngan 2 org pakcik....masjid hidangkan nasi briyani....den me & nas malu ah nak start makan....den step minum air lah, step makan bubur lah padahal dah lapar giler nye....skali nampak si pakcik start makan, full throttle beb makan! hahahaaha.....maklumlah, 1st tyme buka kat masjid. jakon ah katakan.....tapi gerek ah....should buka kat masjid more often....orang orang smua very frenly....oh yeah, si deejay mlayu A B Sheikh pun ada tadi...sat behind me....so afta solat maghrib den ciao ah....
haiyah....jadik volunteer kat masjid pun orait jugak eh....bleh buat members baru, dekatkan diri ngan masjid.....cos tadik da helpers were mostly our age. so kinda kool ah....ok ah, dah berjela-jela criter saya ini. smoga kamu tak pening membaca hikayat ku ini...hurhurhur....smile alwiz & b happy.
xxI'M JUZ ANOTHER FACE IN EVRIBODY'S LIVESxx
Thursday, October 30, 2003
Woooo....2day was da 1st day of the end-of-semester exams....2day was da System & Control paper & it was not dat easy nor was it was 2 hard...50-50 paper ah...as usual, some i can do, some questions i juz skipped. wen i start seeing da calculations r getting a bit weird, i juz stop & went 2 da nex question...hurhurhur....me & ma frenz had a laugh str8 afta da paper cos all our answers 4 diz 1 particular question doesn't make any sense!
Question: How do make da close loop system unstable?
1st answer: Y not make da system an open loop? (& he did put da question mark u no....)
2nd answer: Shake da machine so it'll b unstable.
3rd answer: My fren had his answer like diz : )
4th answer: 4 me 2 no & 4 u 2 find out. Aniting msg me.
So dat was wat my frens wrote as their answers! i won't tell ya mine cos itz equally crappy. hahaahahaha.....it does show how guys react to questions dat dey dunno....da fact dat we juz dun wanna leave da question blank is funi man....instead we try 2 answer in a silly way knowing our answer would b wrong anyways. oh man, i'll b darn hapi even if i get a D for diz module....aniting will do as long i dun haf 2 repeat diz bloody module....da worse part is, all da thoery part dat i memorised came out in da MCQ section...waste my tyme man...i was expecting it 2 come out in da written part skali MCQ plak...alamak, hampa nye hati beta....
& i studied kat library afta da paper...alamak, i hate da library lah....itz like tttooooooo quiet!!!!! hahahaah....me & ma frenz had a hard tyme adjusting 2 da quiet environment....no choice but 2 go there cos our 'port' at T15 was packed....at T15, we can talk as much & laugh as much as we liked. At da library, wen u laf, da whole level can hear u...wen u talk or laugh, den u'll get stares from peepz who r really engrossed in studying.... dey'll like gif u a stare sumthin like dat....
So 2moloz paper iz MCPC....computer lingo crap ah...i'm gonna study 2molo...i was so sleepy 2day liao...studied 4 system & control till da wee hours yesterday....but da most difficult hurdle to pass is da maths paper on wednesday man...alamak....da previous test i only got 47 & i by hook or by crook HAVE 2 pass diz exam....problem is, my mind is anti-maths. oh god, y does maths exist!!!
oklah peepz, i'm goin 2 ponder wat i'm gonna do wen ma parenz r away to KL diz weekend....gonna b all alone again. datz my life anyways, LONELY....ok, slamat berpuasa & love urself aight!
xxOH MAN.....MEBI I'M DOOMED 2 B LONELYxx
Monday, October 27, 2003
yes yes y'all! da 1st day of da fasting has passed. felt like a normal day 2day. didn't felt hungry or aniting....glad 2 c da kidz in skul 2day....i tot dey were like gonna faint or sumthin...hahahaha...cos da place where we usually sit will b full of drinks & tidbits. on good days, KFC's cheese fries will b on da menu...hehehe...oh yeah, plus da ever famous Zappel drink....so itz kool ah evri1 can withstand da fast....as expected, evri1 went back home 2 breakfast. hmm, but i opened up da idea 2 breakfast outside afta da exams. some were kool wif it but some r not. gotta c how it goes ah nex wik.
so all da kidz got their attachments oreadi....some got places dat r like a stone's throw away, some got wwwwaaaayyyyy far places like Ubi....my fren lives near jurong east & he has 2 travel 2 some ulu place at Ubi....damn, datz like he nidz 2 go down 2 tampines & board another bus juz 2 get 2 his werkplace....letz c, da kidz got places such as Jurong Port, Bishan, Ubi, Kallang, Jalan Besar & guess wat!!!! 1 guy got 1 weird place 4 an attachment man!!!! hahahahaaha!!!!!!! itz at Joo Chiat Complex!!!! hahahaahahaha!!!!!!! some shop which sells carpets, baju kurung & wateva dat iz associated wif da hari raya festivity lah...aiyoh....he himself laughed wen he saw da notification letter of his attachment. hahahaha....diz really shows my skul kinda 'dump' kidz anywhere....mebi da industry is not doin dat well & our skul mebi has no choice but 2 assign da kids 2 wateva company dat is available....but hey, at least i know my klasmate is attached 2 da same place as me! kool...so i won't b dat bored in da train...at least i haf sum1 to go there wif & go home wif....at least i won't feel dat lonely...man, diz ITP thingy will b an experience nonetheless. i juz wanna get diz ITP thingy over wif ah....so i'll b there & done that....
okie dokie derrier, datz all 4 2days entry. gonna listen 2 the strokes...& oh yeah, Black Eyed Pea's 'Shut Up' is quite nice man....heard it on channel 5 on smash hits & i was hooked! hurhurhur....aight aight y'all, take care & god bless ya...
xxPATIENCE IZ DA KEYxx
Sunday, October 26, 2003
ALAMAK!!!! Man U kalah lar!!!! damn....boring ah gini....3-1 to Fulham....argh.....anyways, i juz woke up & now nid 2 go 2 da market...hahahaa...itz been a bloody long tyme since i went wif ma ibu 2 da pasar...oh man, confirm kena angkat barang banyak giler nye....hmm, mebi stocking up stuff 4 da fridge....2day iz da final day 4 all of u peepz out there 2 finally eat ur hearts out b4 itz 2 late! ahahahahaha!!!! kool ah 2molo fasting....but sadly diz yr not dat exciting hari raya 4 me....cos da bloody ITP is takin up ma tyme....how can diz be!!! but weekends r there 2 walk around but it all depends on da other kiddos....
i had no choice but 2 study ah 2day....especially maths....hurhurhur....i reali respek pple who can understand maths.....my brain can't take in any info on maths.....hahahhaha....susah sikit lah aku ni....
okie dokie derrier nothing much happened 2day...i'm goin 2 skul 2 ask da peepz 2 teach me wateva dat i dunno...hmm, i dunno evriting! hurhurhur....aight aight, slamat berpuasa ye kamu smua. sekian assalamualaikum.
xxJUZ A MERE THOUGHT OF HER MAKES ME SMILExx
Saturday, October 25, 2003
Wahahahahaah!!!! i got my ITP attachment notice 2day...& i got to werk at Noel Gifts International!!!! kat Kallang...datz da kompani which does hapi berfday kards & all.....but gd thing is, ma fren who werked there b4 said mebi kidz on attachment may werk as packers or delivery guys....hahahaah....kool!!!! i dun wanna do aniting dat involves computers man!!!! onli da downside is dat da location is far....werk starts at 8.30am...so i haf 2 wake up around 6 or sumthin....& i haf yet 2 no how 2 get there exactly....50 Kallang Avenue kat maner ah??? i've seen da Noel building b4 wen i followed my pakcik drive around during outings but 2 get there by public transport is a mystery...hurhurhur....kinda xcited ah ryte now...so i'm gonna ask around & c where da other kids get 2 werk....plus itz da fasting month, kinda nid 2 b patient wif da long journey from chua chu kang to kallang....but nvm lah....
so yesterday i was in front of da teevee da whole day....watched all da holiday movie specials on teevee....watched da Tom Hanks movie, Lagaan, Chalte² & disney's the kid....of all, i liked da kid movie most. cool ah da movie especially da ending....plus yesterday da caltex advertisement was on!!!! u no, da elvis kid who gave his future mother in law chocolates to impress her juz so he wants 2 marry her daughter in da future...so cute....
& diz mawnin finally i managed 2 wake up at 9 2 catch dragonball z! hahaahaha.....alamak, itz kool lah da katun....fight here, fight there....den 11.30 was spongebob squarepants....da episode 2day was funi man....how can a house dissapear juz because a bunch of worms drank da house? hahahaaha.....aiyoh, kool katun man diz spongebob....if only i had cable teevee, i can watch da katun on repeat.
finally....................i've bought The Strokes new album!!! weee!!!! kool man it juz cost below 19 bux....& all da songs r damn nice! da moment i read in da newpaper da album was out, i stopped studying in skul den went str8 2 HMV....hahahahaha...semangat mamat eh. i've been waiting for 2 months 4 diz & i wanna listen as soon as possible...even though it means it burned a hole in ma pocket. but itz all kool. won't b eating anyways since gonna start fasting anyways....hehehehe....
okie dokie derrier, 1 more day 2 da fasting month. b a gd muslim ya. take care & slamat berpuasa! assalamualaikum....
xxDAMN RYTE I'M GONNA BUY LOTS OF ONDEH ONDEHZxx
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Ketika diri mencari sinar
Secebis cahaya menerangi laluan
Ada kalanya langkahku tersasar
Tersungkur di lembah kegelapan
Bagaikan terdengar bisikan rindu
Mengalun kalimah menyapa keinsafan
Kehadiranmu menyentuh kalbu
Menyalakan obor pengharapan
Tika ku kealpaan
Kau bisikkan bicara keinsafan
Kau beri kekuatan, tika aku
Diuji dengan dugaan;
Saat ku kehilangan keyakinan
Kau nyalakan harapan
Saat ku meragukan keampunan Tuhan
Kau katakan rahmat-Nya mengatasi segala
Menitis airmataku keharuan
Kepada sebuah pertemuan
Kehadiranmu mendamaikan
Hati yang dahulu keresahan
Cinta yang semakin kesamaran
Kau gilap cahaya kebahagiaan
Tulus keikhlasan menjadi ikatan
Dengan restu kasih-Mu, oh Tuhan
Syukur sungguh di hati ini
Dikurniakan teman sejati
Menunjuk jalan dekati-Nya
Tika diri dalam kebuntuan
Betapa aku menghargai
Kejujuran yang kau beri
Mengajarku mengenal erti
Cinta hakiki yang abadi
Tiada yang menjadi impian
Selain rahmat kasih-Mu Tuhan
Yang terbias pada ketulusan
Sekeping hati seorang insan;
Bernama teman;
xxANONYMOUS SONGxx
holla peepz! i had a nice day 2day...had da final class of da semester diz mawning den itz up 2 us 2 study 4 da exams...man....it was like onli a few weeks ago dat da term test was on & now itz da final exams...damn, tyme flies so fast wifout u knowing it huh....guess i'm not gonna c da kidz in klas for a week till nex thursday....of coz i'll b seeing da usual suspects at T15...hurhurhur...datz our port y'all! hmm, i understood diz module called system & control juz now in skul...man, afta like half a year in skul diz yr, now den i understood da whole damn concept of the whole module...now i know how 2 do Routh Herwitz criterion blah blah blah....da kids taught me in like 10 minutes & i understood it! damn, wen da teachers teach, i dun understand...hurhurhur... pple muz teach me in bahasa melayu pasar & i'll understand....hehehehe....
wooo...ma fren in skul had done a tattoo on his fingers....he said itz not permanent as he carved his fingers den used chinese ink & applied it 2 da part dat he carved...but damn, it looks like itz gonna b there 4 a bloody long tyme man....watz gotten into him man...itz not as if he's not well liked by frenz in skul or anymore....we treat him well & joke wif him wat....dun tell me he did dat stoopid tattoo juz 2 get a so called 'reputation' or recognition by us....c'mon ah boi, kau dah giler pe buat benda camtu? alamak....serious ah boi, tattoo ko kalau lawa takper jugak ah...ni stakat kecik sapa nak nampak dok....
ok ok...b4 i get angry bout diz....i'd better talk bout ma goin-to-be 2 yr old nephew....he's like gettin cuter by da day!!!! hahaaha....he can say hello & bye bye...hehehe...& he can salute 2 pple...woo, he's super chubby & he's so fair! hehehe....he loves hi-5 so much & he'll dance wen da shows on....i love him so much! soooo cuutteee.....he'll be super dope happy 2 c me wen i come over my auntz house. he'll b jumping around & grab a ball & ask me play 2 soccer wif him....boys huh, 4 sure will play soccer at a young age...he sure can b a runner 1 day cos he does really run fast! serious he can run... anyways, i'll b a kool uncle 2 him 4 sure! 4 sure i'm gonna spoil him! hahahaaha.....i juz love kids man...so innocent & not a care in da world in wateva dey do....kids r so cute man....
okie dokie derrier, i'm repeatedly listenin to 50 Cent's 21 Questions since like 8 o klok juz now....hurhurhur...ok, take care 2 whoeva's readin diz. Aight, assalamualaikum....
xxI LIKE TO ASK 21 QUESTIONS & DEY ALL ABOUT USxx
xx 50 CENT- 21 QUESTIONS xx
Wooo...i watched da finals of Anugerah 2day...hurhurhur....& yup, i rooted Eka Mairina 2 win...& she did! kool man! whaahahah!!! da kool dude was also a close call...dey were neck 2 neck wif each other eh....wow, by juz singing, she got a kool $5000 huh...damn...but itz considered peanuts compared 2 da singing comps in da US of A...da winners there get endorsement deals, singing contract worth millions etc etc...guess da market in s'pore is dat small huh...but anyways, $5000 is hard 2 come by nowadays ryte. all da bez 2 her & her soon-2-be-born kid.
Anyways, while watching da show & wen da advertisement was on, i can't get stop looking at da Hejab Iran commercial...hahahaha....damn, dat new model of theirs is 1 sweet ladee!!! Maudy Koesnady is da name....alah, da indonesian actress in sum malay drama which i dunno da title....hurhurhur...itz her smile dammit!!! itz her smile!!!! arrgghhh....i'm such a sucker wen it comes 2 a sweet smile....i read in Manja magazine laz monthz edition if i'm not wrong dat she's married 2 a caucasian man...wooo.....a 2-die-4 lady wif a caucasian...hmm, does it alwiz happen like dat??? hahahha....
hmm, i've been listening 2 old skul malay songs man....gingerbread, black dog bone, A Rahman Hassan juz 2 name a few...hurhurhur....mebi itz da influence of ma frenz...but diz song by Gingerbread 'Ku Cari Damai Di Hati' is a damn kkkllllaaassssiiikkk!!!!!!!! woo, dat song iz damn nice in ma opinion....okie dokie derrier, i'm outtie 4 2day....exams r like nex wik & as usual, i haven't started studying...hehehe...aight, assalamualaikum.....
xxAND I LOST MY PAGE. AGAINxx
xxI KNOW THIS IS SO RARExx
xxBUT I'LL TRY MY LUCK WITH YOUxx
xxTHIS LIFE IS ON MY SIDExx
xxWELL, AM I YOUR ONE?xx
xxBELIEVE ME THIS IS A CHANCExx
Monday, October 20, 2003
wahai sahabat wahai teman..
carilah dia kerana tuhan..
untuk menambah ceteknya iman..
bekalan diri hidup berteman..
wahai sahabat wahai teman..
cintailah dia kerana beriman..
dijadikan tuhan sebagai pasangan..
baik buruk ketentuan tuhan..
wahai sahabat wahai teman..
terimalah dia penuh keikhlasan..
pandai buruk anggaplah dugaan..
andai baik pujilah tuhan..
wahai sahabat wahai teman..
ingatlah akan janji tuhan..
isteri yang baik besar balasan..
suami penyabar itulah kemenangan..
xxTINK & REFLECTxx
assalamualaikum peepz! wowee....i dunno y but i'm like hapi 2day man....datz weird....mebi bcos my stoopid RWP module is finally over & itz juz a matter of waiting 4 da results....da lecturer said 5 failed da bloody report but c'mon, there's a lot of other factors dat might help pull up da marks ryte...so chill bebeh....had ma presentation in klas diz mawnin...da moment da guys saw me, dey laughed at me man....haahahaha...itz kool though...itz not evriday u c me side parting ma hair, tucking in ma shirt & FINALLY ironing my pants....hahahahaa!!! i juz had 2 wear ma father's size 7 smart shoe cos i dun haf a smart shoe at all...hurhurhur....itz all kool cos i onli wore it wen it was my turn 2 present....other den dat, da whole day i wore ma trusty Vans shoe....da guys were like 'mak ai khai, dah tak macam kau seh....' hmm, i look different izzit? aiyoh, i'm so not used 2 diz type of smart dressing....even da shirt was ma father's own....
Luckily da presentation went OK ah....i juz read watever dat i wrote on ma post-it pads....wrote it yesterday & kinda memorised wat 2 say....da Q&A was hilarious cos i myself dunno wat i'm trying 2 convey...hahahaha...i suck big tyme at Q&A....ma grup members were there 2 back me up though so i didn't need 2 talk dat much...hehehe...gettin way wif murder huh....oh god, i was trembling wen presenting....my hands were shaking....i pitied ma fren who didn't haf da tyme 2 complete his whole presentation cos he ran out of time...his dressing 2day was hehehehe....aiyoh, i dun wanna say aniting ah...onli da kidz in klas no....haahahahah....
afta dat klas, went 2 maths klas where so few peepz attended since attendance was not taken...i went 2 da lecture but wen i sat beside ayub, da rest of da lecture was filled wif jokes & lafter...hahaaha....aiyah, i'd rather laugh den listen 2 da boring lecturer...laughter is da best medicine & i do agree wif it...
oh yeah, i've juz developed da pix ma klasmate passed 2 me 2day. i developed 9 pix in all & itz all kool. pix taken in skul & wen we were foolin around....finally i haf pix of da poly kidz....now i realise dat all of dem r great 2 b wif....took me awhile 2 blend in u c.....
okie dokie derrier, itz about maghrib tyme ryte now...so haf a nice evening & 2 da kidz in skul who r reading diz, study hard 4 ur exams aight! 1 Love.
xxMOI TROUVER PAIX EN MES COEURxx
xxKU CARI DAMAI DI HATIxx
Saturday, October 18, 2003
alamak...i missed dragonball z 2day....datz 2 wikz in a row man...aiyoh...mebi bcos i slept at around 2am...kinda feeling ok ryte now cos da verdict is finally out bout sumthin...hmm, finally i expressed ma feelings 2 sum1....wah lan eh, datz sumthin new bout me...i'll normally juz keep mum bout tings 2 personal but sumhow yesterday i juz had 2 tell her. i dunno y but i juz had too. mebi bcos itz too long i've been keeping diz or mebi i juz plainly wan her 2 no....but itz all kool now...pple do read diz stoopid blog of mine jugak eh...hurhurhur....i tot nobody reads it...
as shocking as it may seem, i'm not wat pple xpek me 2 b. i've been thinking bout life a lot lately & how short life is in diz world. every opportunity we juz have 2 take. & datz y i wanted dat sum1 2 no how i feel. i dun care bout da verdict....juz no dat i do haf feelings 4 u. ok dokie, i'm gonna c if there's a gd hindustani movie on teevee ryte now....hahaha...so bored dat a hindustani movie is my last resort...ok dokie derrier, smile alwiz.
xxPERSONNE AUTRE MAIS VOUS, SEUL VOUSxx
xxNOBODY ELSE BUT YOU, ONLY YOUxx
Friday, October 17, 2003
i've been so bloody bizi diz days dat i dun haf da tyme 2 update every other day...quite a lot of happenings diz wik...had 2 online quizzes & lab test 2 go along...plus had a friendly floorball match with ITE Dover...hmm, ate ma fevret ondeh² afta not having it 4 like 4 months...hurhurhur....
so, i aced ma both ma online quizzes....cos i asked da bois in klas 2 help! hahahaaha!!! we were reali helping each other man...hurhurhur....wen 1 person has finished, we went 2 da others 2 help. since da questions were repeated, we knew oreadi wat were da answers so we happily clicked away & mostly scored 80 for da quiz...heheheeh....but da maths quiz i did all by myself ok! hahahaa....3 out of da 5 questions i did by myself & da other 2 were 'rumah terbakar panggil bomba, bomba datang berlumba², a for awak, b for budak, c for cantik, awak budak cantik' kind of thing...hehehehe....fortunately da 2 questions turn out 2 b right so i was beaming dat day...hehehe.....
hmm, da floorball team had a frenly on wednesday & sadly both da guys & gurls team loz....but can't blame us cos itz our very 1st match wif any1! cos we were onli playing among ourselves & we had a taste on how good da ITE Dover team were. i didn't play though cos i was new & juz watched it ah. da gurls loz 2-1 while da guys 4-2. ain't dat bad ryte. da floorball team is damn fun cos moz of da bois i laughed wif r in da team too. Ayub, fir, bob 2 name a few. Ayub especially....he's da clown man....klaka giler dia....
wowee, i had such a hectic day 2day. didn't even find da tyme 2 eat. wen 2 skul at 10 to do da bloody report 4 presentation on monday. onli 2 find out dat da others haven't even started doin their part. not even bothering 2 scold dem, i juz said nicely 2 dem 2 finish it up by da end of da day. & dey did. finally itz done & now we all nid 2 prepare 4 our speeches. kinda crap lah....den had da lab test summore...hosey liao....very da bizi man....luckily da test was a jiffy.
hmm, i've been wondering lately bout sumthin....am i trying 2 hard or am i trying in vain juz 2 b wif dat sum1. it does take 2 hands 2 clap & if i'm da onli 1 clapping, watz da use. but wateva it iz, itz a chance not 2 b missed. she's juz 2 good. i dunno whether a rat like me would even deserve da slightest attention from her. onli tyme will tell huh.
so ma klasmate bought da pix she took laz wik. funi pix man. took pix in da kantin, klas & even da usual port where we chilled. all were smiling & in a gd mood. i'm gonna develop those pix. i haven't got many pix of ma poly frenz so far. so diz is a gd way 2 remember dem by. kkklllaaasssiiikkk!!!! okie dokie derrier, i tink i've written a novel oreadi. so long...take care aight 2 whoeva's reading diz.
xxJUZ A SMILE WOULD LIGHTEN ME UPxx
I feel the heat
From these 4 candles burning
As I'm staring out the window
In solitude I look at life
From different angles
Thoughts strangled
My mind is suffocatin'
In this truth quest
A greed law
That we abide by is ruthless
Enough will never satisfy
Until we toothless
Filthy millionaires
Are gamblin' until they muflis
A sad fact of life
But mankind approved this
I gotta call Him
Sajadah is where the booth is
I'll make it clear that
I ain't even tryin' to preach here
By sharing thoughts I hope
To find a little peace here
I thank Allah for blessing me
To be creative
So here's a diss for me
For bein' unappreciative
Wanted a perfect life
Yeah smile then die old
Fame, money, women
Phat cribos and white gold
Drive my own Beemer
Before I hit two six
A straight pink bitin' toothpicks
Who walk around town wit' two chicks
And doin' new hits to woo tricks....
Now that's wrong
Pleasure from partyin'
And bull ish don't last long
A lotta yuppies sneakin'
Cars out when dad's gone
Crackin' bottles in clubs
Frontin' designer fashion
But I ain't about
To trade happiness for a Jag
So stop smilin' with your ragtop down
Cause for a fact
I don't care about your money
Or how slick your car
'Cause no matter how rich and big you are
It's still Allahuakbar...
Ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
Hayya nab'idil karaha (Let’s avoid the hated and hatred)
Syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
Ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)
I know that all this
Ain't the right thing
Partying, chasing moneys
And material things
Flying high
Think nobody gonna
Clip my wings
I'm lying to myself
Knowing that
I've been neglecting
Responsibilities
As a healthy Muslim
Riches and loot
Ain't nothing
We frontin'
Diamonds and scrilla
But forget to say
Alhamdulillah
Made my album a killer
Plan B
Now 2-3 droppin'
And I wish to
Ask for forgiveness
Your guidance
Protection and strength
For humbleness and faith
To make me a better man
Success in foreign lands
Never dreamt of that
I remember being 18
When we started Too Phat
Now let's go back
Three years before that
Sometimes I forget
Me and my parents
Took a trip with granddad
I remember '95
While performing Umrah
Made my wish in Mecca
Right in front the Kaabah
Dear God
You made it possible
When facing obstacles
Please let me do good
Before I pass on
In the hospital
And keep reciting
The Testimony of Faith
And find the right way
Out of this life's maze
Ay yo…
Two candles go out
That's when
I feel the wind blow
I haven't met Fatim
For two years
Been livin' like I'm single
Evaluatin' all the friendships
Relationship
The reason it's the tenth year
Is 'cause she's a patient chick
And as far as friends are concerned
Many I've had it all
From those who cried for my pain
To those who plotted my fall
I learned to differentiate
Fakes from the great
Mates from the snakes
Apes wanna beef
Hate's all it takes
For me to blow
A diss song for you
Not even worthy
As an album filler
So now it's smiles
And Alhamdulillah
Yeah, love me
Or hate me
This who I am
Look at the past at times
I wish that I was born again
So I can rectify mistakes
And my wrong doings
Attempts on minimizing my sins
Before my story ends
I ain't no Eddie Murphy
Tryin' to sound as a holy man
But if I tried to be a better person
Now I prolly can
(Wait...)
Who am I to advise you
I ain't been the best
Of God's slaves
Just a poet writin'
What my thought says
A little house
A little car
A little sweet girl
Thank you Lord
I'll try to slow it down
On the cheap thrills
This song will prolly stir
A little controversy
At least I ain't be rappin'
Bout the stuff
As tho' I'm born in Jersey
Stage name is Malique
And lost name is Cairel
Mama told me
Stop complaining too much,
So I will...
(Excerpts from Too Phat)
Monday, October 13, 2003
Been a long tyme since i updated huh...wat 2 do...i had a horrid weekend....no mood 2 say aniting....skulz been crap as usual....diz mawnin, ma so called 'english' teacher told da klas dat 3 pple might haf 2 repeat da damn module cos dey didn't do da report dat well. wowee....3 huh....i'm 1 of dem surely....crap....den y did she ask me 2 do a so called '2nd edition' of ma report....dat says a lot man...i dun like her...plus nex wik iz ma grupz presentation & i better get da whole lazy group 2 stay back & bloody make sure dey do their job.
hmm, i've been wanting 2 change lately....mebi bcos i juz started 2 tink dat i've done enuf bad tings in life....kinda wanting 2 b gd.....itz not as if i've done major crap or wateva...itz juz small crap like making fun of pple, lafing at other pple etc etc...itz da small tings dat can bring u down spiritually....datz y now i'm trying ma bez 2 cut down on all of diz...cos i do believe dat wateva goes around, comes around. if u do gd, gd tings will happen & vice versa. a lot of tings has happened in ma life. & i'm onli 19 to date....as i get older, i tend 2 realise dat itz better 2 repent rather den waiting 4 da laz minute 2 do so....slowly i'm trying 2 change....a lot of factors dat made me wanna change....
God for one, my parenz, sum1 in skul, frenz, juz about evriting. In all honesty, i haven't been da bez of god's slaves. I'm trying 2 change dat & minimize ma sins b4 ma story ends. I ain't no Eddie Murphy trying 2 sound as a holy man but if i could be a better person now i'd probably can. Ma parenz 2 make me wanna change. Who else in diz world would ask 4 4giveness if not 4 their onli son. I realised dat dey've done enuf & been thru a lot of hard times juz 2 raise a brat like me. Da least i can do is pray 4 their well being & ask God 2 4give dem 4 any of their mistakes in life. I've been crying lately in ma prayers cos i feel so useless. i juz hope ma prayerz r heard. I really really really wanna change.
I juz admire sum1 in skul so much. How i respect her. She's like so perfect but i no no1's perfect but she does look like it. I do tink God loves her. She does carry herself nicely & she seems so calm. I want 2 feel calm too. Mebi it iz true dat religion can make u calm & feel at ease. I juz go weak in the knees even if itz juz plain talk wif her. Problem is, at da state dat i'm in, no way iz she gonna accept me 4 me. Wen i dun even haf da guts 2 tell her dat i adore her sooooo much. well, letz juz c wat happens huh. i really do like her a lot & itz juz not an infatuation. it really iz not. so diz ends ma blog. 4 sure now i look 4ward 2 go 2 skul evriday. till nex tyme....
xxITZ JUZ SAD WEN U DUN ACKNOWLEDGE MExx
Friday, October 10, 2003
wooo...2dayz friday prayers preaching was a mind opener man....kinda made u tink 4 a second bout whether u r being true 2 ur religion....aaahhhh, i dun wanna touch bout religion....itz a sensitive topic.... so 2day i had ma lab test which i BOMBED.....dammit man.....i went 2 pick da most difficult topic man....there were random papers all face down & u juz had 2 try ur luck...i was hoping 2 get da topic dat i really studied 4...skali, i got da worse paper of all....ma answer was like 3 lines long & datz it. doesn't make any sense at all...
hmm, i bought da pouch dat i've alwiz wanted yesterday at beach rd...fitz ma MD, specs & even ma calculator in it! cos bringing a bag kinda bothers me...i like walking around being 'free' u no....hurhurhur.....so now i go 2 skul mebi bringing juz ma file & ma trusty new pouch. Slack abis aku ni....okie dokie derrier, dunno wat 2 say anymore...i'm gonna play ma gitar now & rawk sleepy tek y...hahahaah....stoopid kid....
xxMA EXISTENCE IS UNNECESSARYxx
Thursday, October 09, 2003
Do I Or Don't I Deserve Her? Will She Accept Me?
That Is The Question
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
hehehehe....remember wen i said i wanna b 18 forever??? hmm, i wanna b 19 4eva!!! haahahaha!!!! at da stroke of midnite, pple started 2 sms me & wished me a hapi bday...hohohoho...dat doesn't include da well wishes i got in skul juz now....hehehe....& i got 2 eat kueh ma klasmates bought 4 me.... :) i'm so thankful 2 haf friends who do remember me....altho i was sick juz now, i juz had 2 come 2 skul.
wowee, da early part of da day was cool...but i spent da whole afternoon sleeping! hahahaah!!! i was sick lar....den woke up at 6.30 & ma parenz went 2 gif me da most funniest present 2 date....letz juz say it has sumthin 2 do wif da brand Braun...hahahaah....& itz electronic....HAHAHAHA!!!! 4 sho u no wat i mean....hahahaha....i laughed wen i got dat....but itz all kool...i was da 1 who pestered dem 4 dat ting...hahahaaha...weird ah asking 4 dat....& da another funi part, dey 4got 2 tear away da price tag...hahahaha....dey bought it at mustafa centre rupanye....aiyoh, ma parenz r weird....dat xplains y i'm weird 2....
okie dokie derrier, i wanna eat ma coklet rice cake...hoho...i'll go weak wen it comes 2 ondeh²z, ayam masak merah & chocolates....hehehe....c ya :)
xxOne Who Lacks Kindness Of Heart Lacks All Goodxx
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
alamak!!!! i'm on MC 2day...craplah...my 100% attendance rekod in poly life has finally been tarnished... can't help it man...my fever was 38.3....so bloody cold & i hate it! hurhurhur....2molo muz go skul....& 2moloz ma bday! hahahaah!!! dah jadi wak² aku ni....tua nye.....19 iz old ok! hahahahaah!!!!
so, i've been listening 2 bob marley nowadays....Is This Love has got 2 b da bez man! sedap lah lagu ni! macam bleh makan! itz a pity he passed away oreadi....i juz adore his dreadlocks....so kool man....hmm, yesterday 1 of ma klasmate had 2 do her presentation....da moment she spoke da 1st few wordz of her presentation, i was giggling deep down inside....heheheeh....her voice iz so damn cute! hahaahaha!!!! c'mon Sab! no offence! kau gerek nye org! sumpah....heheehe....
ok lah....wif da headache i'm havin now, i can't think str8...hurhurhur....till nex tyme ya....take care!
xxMAFIMUSYKILA RAWKSxx
Monday, October 06, 2003
Is This Love- Bob Marley
I wanna love you, and treat you right
I wanna love you, every day and every night
We'll be together, with a roof right over our heads
We'll share the shelter, of my single bed
We'll share the same room, JAH provide the bread
Is this love, is this love, is this love
Is this love that I am feeling
I wanna know, wanna know, wanna know now
I got to know, got to know, got to know now
I'm willing and able
So I throw my cards on your table
I wanna love you and treat you right
I wanna love you, every day and every night
We'll be together, with a roof right over our heads
We'll share the shelter, of my single bed
We'll share the same room, JAH provide the bread
Is this love, is this love, is this love
Is this love that I am feeling
Oh yes I know, yes I know, yes I know now
I'm willing and able
So I throw my cards on your table
See I wanna love you, I wanna love and treat
You right, I wanna love you, every day and every night
We'll be together, with a roof right over our heads
We'll share the shelter, of my single bed
We'll share the same room, JAH provide the bread
Sunday, October 05, 2003
hosey liao!!! da moment i woke up i felt sick...wat da...alamak, now i can't go 2 da flea market...gotta order da tee online it seems...wat a bummer...crap, i've got a presentation again 2molo...hate diz presentations...da Q&A session is da 1 dat i dread da most...but luckily da guys in klas dun 'saboh' me wen it comes 2 da Q&A...dey won't ask any questions...hurhurhur....
i discovered diz song by Blur by chance wen i was browsing thru ma CD's....i didn't know da 'You're So Great' song was in da album...hurhurhur...datz juz me, buying CD's & juz listening 2 one or 2 songs den datz it...dun bother 2 listen 2 da whole track...itz been a long tyme since i bought CD's...cos i've been downloading dem...hahahaha....i'm a pirate!!! but diz October, i gotta buy The Strokes latest album coming out on da 28th of diz month...cool guys & old skul rock&roll tunes...Limp Bizkit's latest is a muz buy 2 me...Eat U Alive is damn kool...da lyrics r in da song really justifies how girls sumtimes ignore guys wen da guyz in love...da part where he says
'Hey you, Mrs. too-good-to-look-my-way and that's cool you want nothing at all to do with me.' is like yeah man! in malay terms, jual mahal katakan....
So i'm juz gonna laze around alone at home & juz wait till 5pm 2 watch smash hits...i haven't watched 1 episode so far cos i've been out almost every weekend & diz iz da 1st tyme i can catch da show....wokay peepz, take care & remember 2 listen 2 ur parenz.
xxESCAPISMxx
You're So Great - Blur
Sad drunk and poorly
Sleep in really late
Sad drunk and poorly
Not feeling so great
Wandering lost in a town full of frowns
Sad drunk and poorly
Dogs digging up the ground
And I feel the light in the night and in the day
And I feel the light
When the sky's just mud and grey
And I feel the night when you tell me it's OK
Coz you're so great and I love you
Tea, tea and coffee
Helps to start the day
Tea, tea and coffee
Shaking all the way
City's alive, a surprise so am I
Tea, tea and coffee, get no sleep today
Saturday, October 04, 2003
Dammit lar....my lecturer asked me 2 redo my entire report man...i thought i was over with it...den i had 2 read her bloody e-mail stating i had 2 redo the entire crap....i juz submitted it diz mawnin str8 afta waking up....from 8.30am till 12....missed watching dragonball z....hahahaah!!! nvm, there's whose line is it anyway 2day...datz sumthin 2 look 4ward to.
Hmm, my parenz went 2 KL 2day & i'm all alone at home till Monday...gonna b a boring weekend afta all....but 2molo i'm goin 2 da Tall Midgets flea market sale at zouk. cek out their website & u'll know wat i mean....datz another thing 2 look 4ward to.....so i read the papers bout da Linkin Park concert in KL....haiyah, the press got it all wrong....LP has da permission to scream & shout lah....of coz ryte....most LP songs consist of screaming ryte...haiyah, plus da tix is only SG$40....woi peepz! holla me lah if u wanna go!!!! itz a once in a lifetime oppourtunity man....
I tried da new Mcdippers yesterday & i tell u guys itz not worth it....it costs $3.10 & wif dat same price, u can buy ur own from da market & u could have 20-30 nuggets or fillets man....and da Mcdipper iz so small....da graphics really had me fooled....Dammit....bazir je duit aku...nak mintak refund takleh kan...hehehe....
Hmm, i'm havin trouble wif ma tagboard and blog lately...i liked this 1 blog template from The All American Rejects but wen i published it, everything seems 2 b so haywire....& my tagboard seems 2 disappear....hahahaa....i'm a klutz wen it comes 2 computer lingo....pple tell me 2 cut and paste da whole HTML code but wen i do it myself, it turns out da wrong way...hahaahah!!! nvm, i guess i'll stick 2 my plain ol blog....Wokay, i'm gonna stop here 4 2day & relish da silence of being alone....
xxWISH I HAD A SISTERxx
Thursday, October 02, 2003
Yahhhoooo!!!!! I can play ma favourite Finch song man!!!! yeah!!!!! Damn accurate i tell ya! As i play, i listen 2 their song at ma hi-fi. wwwooooowww!!!! can't wait 2 find peepz who r into music....hmm, got good newz 2day....i got full marks 4 ma computer program...wahahaha...but itz only 5% of da whole module...so it isn't much of a help though....crap.....
so, tall midgets have contacted me bout their flea market sale at zouk diz sunday....itz gonna b damn cool y'all....i love their t-shirts & i prefer those tees dat r not commonly seen in public. unlike those stoopid giordano tees dat has 'ME' in it wif different designs....datz like bloody common man! whaahahah!!!! aiyoh, b different lah....hmm, yesterday was childrens day huh...wah, i do miss ma primary skul tyme where u'll get pencil cases, chocolates & stuff....even youth day we aren't given a holiday...datz 1 bad point bout growing up....
Yesterdayz ITP briefing was a bloody bore man!!! Plus da fact i had 2 miss da street soccer competition held by the skul of EEE juz adds salt 2 da wound man....My team got 3rd last year & we couldn't retain our so called 'title'...hahaha....if i've known earlier, my team could've have juz taken da bloody booklet & went 4 da game man....crap....Nvm, by hook or by crook, da 7-a-side iz a muz join nex year! my team bowed out in da quarter finals thru penalties & i missed 1 man....so sad....now i know how professional players feel wen dey miz a penalty...da dejection & frustration....
wokay. i'm in skul while writing this....c ya soon. take care & haf a nice day!
xxWINNING ISN'T EVERYTHINGxx
